A performer is always connected to their audience and this is evidence through the response the emotion and complete joy on their faces. The relationship between a Diva and her gay fans is a lifetime of dramatic admiration. When you think of any female iconic performer chances are a large male gay audience loves them. Not just love but also completely is a part of their life in there head. For me the relationship between me and my gay fans all blossomed on a cold night in 1995 in New York City at the ROXY.
Wearing a long purple dress and large feather jacket and my face made up in the most gorgeous colors of makeup and glitter all over my body I slowly approached the crowd in the dark. As I sang the first 3 words “Love Life & Laughter” the crowd went into frenzy like I had never heard before it was the roar of emotion the rippled through my heart like tsunami wave. With every move every glance every freeze turn and pose they seemed to be on a euphoric high of emotion. I was experiencing in that moment what being a Diva feels like. As I sang with pure emotional power and melody I could hear them singing along to every word their hands were in the air and never ever came down through the whole 5 minutes of the song. I was experiencing something new this type of admiration was new to me and I really was amazed by who this admiration came from. Being raised by a Baptist minister I never really knew what the word Gay Icon or Diva really meant all I know is within 5 minutes of singing that NYC crowd of 2000 gay man gave me a new title.
Here I am a small town little preachers daughter with a voice that was developed in church and pretty much only used for singing about God has now written a song not only a song but something they call a Gay Anthem. How this sing was crowned this title I really don’t know but as it turned out this is the song many of those gay males that were standing in the night club in 1995 were just coming out the closet and something about the words in this song gave them a sense of freedom and feeling better about themselves as they now were faced with a fear of not being accepted by society. This song was there comfort music to there heart the words made them feel loved made them feel like everything was going to be okay they were the Dreamer and nothing was going to stop them from being happy.
As I travelled the world singing this record I noticed that every were I went to perform it was the same type of audience predominately gay males at first I was overwhelmed by there admiration for me and this song but then I realized this song had mad an impact on a whole generation of gay men. And my lyrics connected to them in a way that made them feel something strong in there soul. I realized that being gay wasn’t something they woke up wanting it’s just what something that they felt at a certain age in there life. I stopped asking questions about it I just embraced them as they embraced me.
Now that I have carried this title for more then 20 years I realize that the relationship between a singing Diva an her gay fans is one of the most precious relationships I could ever dream of having. They are my wings when I feel like I can’t fly. They are the wind that blows when I feel like I am stuck in the mud. They are the faces of hope that I see when the lights hit the stage and I look out into the audience and I see there happy face. They are the reason why I am still able to travel the world singing this same song bring complete joy to people for 6 minutes and touching there heart forever. I am beyond grateful for this relationship it is one that I never saw coming never dreamed of having but it is hear and I love being a Diva in love with her gay fans.
In summary the relationships we have in life are precious no matter what or who that is connecting with someone or something that holds a significant meaning to you is a beautiful part of the human spirit.